she watches from without
hopeful and hungry
icicles fingers clutching glossies
skin brittle
waiting
if only he'd look her way
and smile hello
silver sharpee pen in fist
day after night his representation aches her imagination
a desperation acrid sweet as warheads and jawbreakers
out of reach but for photographic relapses
recorded proclamations of sounds meaning more than
anyone would ever know
nervous for a broken heart
anxious for a stolen moment
wounded and begging aid from an imposed hero
thunderous brow and slashed eyes
she stands by dying in patience
eyes she's traced a million times
lips she's dreamed of tracing by fingertip
smooth skin and perfectly quaffed hair
muscle and bone
living, live, real
she holds her breath
speechless and numb-tongued
dumb
the idol scribbles in black marker
no smile no spark no nothing
already seeing the next obligation five more down
still untouchable
forever unreachable
unnoticed she slips away
disappointed and crestfallen
at night she'll still see him
dreamy and close
so close she can touch him
and someday she would